Pen to the Paper

"Either write something worth reading or do something worth writing" - Benjamin Franklin

I think those are both admirable goals. I've always wanted to write a book, since I enjoy reading myself and I think my life could be worth writing, if I say so myself. I think people take for granted how beautiful literature is, and how hard it really is to write. I don't read anything... "spectacular" or anything AP English worthy, but I read books that I enjoy, and that's how you should read too. I have always been fascinated by Tolkien's articulation and imagination in his Middle Earth of Lord of the Rings; to write your own language, detailed culture and species, and geography, is incredibly difficult.

I have been formulating my own story in my mind for a long time, but when it comes to putting the pen to the paper, I've never got around to do it. I always get excited when I think about it, all my twists and allusions I want to incorporate into my story; my story is going to be a fantasy, because that is what I usually read- or sci-fi- but I don't mind the good fiction or historical book once in awhile. I already have the main plot in my head, with the story mirroring Greek mythology, but alluding a lot to the Bible, particular the angels. I've been reading a lot into angelology (say that five times fast,) and it is really fascinating. There are many descriptions and accounts on the major angels of heaven, and they all have their own roles; it is also interesting reading about their fall, and speculations on why the Flood was really necessary, and the "layers" of heaven and what not. This has usually been what makes my faith stronger- I guess it's sad to say I'm not a believer from God's love or grace, although I'm not saying I don't appreciate it, but I don't feel... well comforted much. I guess because I truly accept we are all sinful and are falling into hell without His intervention. I don't feel comforted, and I'm not saying He is not loving me- it's just hard to explain. I grow stronger in my faith when things click together perfectly. For example, how intricate and perfect our body is... or the universe... or any law of nature. Today in Bible, we talked about thinking like the Devil. It makes so much sense on the Devil's plans to destroy us- by the family. That's why we have all these stupid corporations... it's just... well ingenius on both parts. Smart and cunning for Satan, and genius on how it explains a lot of things and why they happen. I feel stronger in my faith because I guess I'm just a logical thinker. That's why sometimes I'm really sarcastic because I don't understand why sometimes people don't get things that I think are so simple, and it frustrates me when people don't believe it because it just makes so much sense... and I don't understand how anyone can NOT believe it or even have a little doubt or little change in their thinking! But sometimes I just do it to mess with you... (ahem) ... you know who you are...

So yeah, since I can blog every other day, maybe I should try to start writing my story out too. At least a little at a time. An ideal outcome for me would be that I finish it, and watch you guys read it during our senior year. That would be amazing; I could answer your questions about it and watch you formulate your own ideas and why or what I'm alluding to. Yeah... I think I want to really do that now. I'm not an amazing writer, but I think at least I can write like I'm having a conversation with you and describe things fairly well. Ha, I'm getting excited just thinking about it.

Oh yeah, sorry about the last post, "Wish Upon a Star." I tried it from my phone, but my phone sent it in several different texts, so I had to try to rearrange them back in the same order on here, so now it is fixed and should make sense.